My story is a story of hindsight. My oldest child is 20 and the youngest is 17. These two sons of mine have brought me great joy, even in the midst of pain. There were times that I was sure I would never be good enough for them. The first time I felt this sense […]

I experienced anxiety and postpartum depression with the birth of my fourth baby, which lasted about 9 months. I remember the ways I changed. Each morning I would try to get up and take care of everyone, but many times throughout the day I would start to cry. I would cry for about 10 minutes, […]

I have PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Disease), borderline personality disorder, and PTSD related to childhood domestic violence. All I ever wanted to be was a mother, but the PCOS made it almost impossible. I had lost many pregnancies, all of which were in very early stages. I had just about given up hope. However, on my […]

Much like Emily, I desperately wanted to complete our family. Due to some previous health issues, we were unsure if I could get pregnant again. After trying in early 2015, I got pregnant but lost the pregnancy very early. 4 short weeks later, I got pregnant again. This time around I was extremely worried that […]

Disclaimer: The following article mentions the topic of suicide or other sensitive subjects, which may trigger negative thoughts and feelings for those currently suffering or still recovering from a mental or mood disorder. Reader discretion is advised. For me, postpartum depression was instantaneous. The day I gave birth was the day something in me shifted. […]

I was so looking forward to starting our family, and when we found out we were having a boy, I felt invincible–like nothing could go wrong. I had the delivery planned out in my mind and daydreamed about the moment when I’d be able to hold my perfect, healthy baby boy. But, my delivery did […]

Growing up, postpartum depression was always very stigmatized in my mind. I heard family members say things like, “Really? Baby blues? Everyone struggles – you just have to get through it.” I grew up thinking that people who said they had postpartum depression just wanted attention. Fast-forward some time when my husband and I had […]

I am thankful for depression and anxiety. Yes! I just said that, and here’s why: after Hallie was born I got severe postpartum depression. One day my friends took me for a walk and told me that someday I would be grateful for this trial. They also told me that maybe I had to experience […]

Disclaimer: The following article mentions the topic of suicide or other sensitive subjects, which may trigger negative thoughts and feelings for those currently suffering or still recovering from a mental or mood disorder. Reader discretion is advised. My Experience with Postpartum Depression And the Lasting Effects After 30 Years I was married at 19 ½ years, […]

Disclaimer: The following article mentions the topic of suicide or other sensitive subjects, which may trigger negative thoughts and feelings for those currently suffering or still recovering from a mental or mood disorder. Reader discretion is advised. A few months after I had my third baby, I knew that something wasn’t right with me. The […]