Before my first child was born, I was familiar with The Emily Effect foundation. After hearing about the foundation, I wanted to get it out there as much as I could. In 2016, I ran the St. George Marathon wearing an Emily Effect jersey. I was able to share with others what the foundation is about and how to learn more. I had no idea that one short year later I would be on the other side of it all.
In September of 2017, my husband and I were blessed with our first child – a beautiful little girl. I felt so much love for her that I thought my heart could burst, but something was wrong. I couldn’t sleep, eat, or even function as a human being. I found myself drowning in tears every single day. I no longer knew how (or desired) to care for myself, and after about a month it felt that my family would be better off without me. I felt hopeless and like I was on a never ending merry-go-round. I didn’t want to face any more days…or nights.
Luckily, my husband had seen enough posts on our social media from The Emily Effect to know the signs. He stopped me from “being done.” He saved me – this foundation saved me. For that, I am forever grateful. After working with my husband and digging deeper than ever before, I am getting help. I now have hope; I have the desire to live. I need to be here for this adventure of life. I look forward to waking up each day and living.
There is help, there is hope, and you are not alone! Life is always worth living, both for yourself and for those that love and need YOU! No one can take your place – you are loved by so many. It does get better. PLEASE keep going.