After my first child was born, I mostly felt good with being a new mom. I really didn’t know much about postpartum depression; it literally came out of nowhere. I don’t even remember how it happened or what caused it. It just happened.
Breastfeeding wasn’t helping at all–I was resenting my newborn each and every day. I hated it with a passion. I remember I would cry all the time, and I was easily frustrated, angry, or upset. Mentally I as not in a good place. I never wanted to leave the house. What scared me the most were my thoughts, which were very dark.
My husband pointed out that I needed help because of how frustrated I was getting. I knew there was something wrong, and I needed help. I told my doctor about my frustration, the constant crying, and my extreme fatigue. I was concerned about the horrible thoughts I was having. I was prescribed medication to help.
Postpartum depression is serious. If you’re going through this, you’re not alone. Getting help was the best thing I could do, especially because after I had my second baby I suffered from postpartum depression again. The best thing you can do for yourself is to get help. Just know you’re not alone.